Lately I'm in a really bad mood, and that all the time, I'm so frustrated.

I've got a lot of problem with the german system, i don't understand it. It's bullshit, I think that's basically the problem. So I really hope I can get to Seoul for the next semester. I'm learning right now the alphabet, it's not too difficult, but I don't have so much time for such things at the moment.

Too much to do, i need vacation. I don't want to do anything because here in Germany for them it's more important you've got a good documentation then a good work! WTF!?

So I've got quiet bad points last semester, even I worked a lot for everything, just not for the documentation. But yeah I don't care that much anymore. I'll do my best this semester and I'll simply do a better documentation.

Ah also lately I'm really interested in the punk generation, Richard Hell called ist the "blank" generation.

Basically that was it.

A semester project about tourismus.

THIS IS FUCKING TRIER.

some comments would be lovely.

edith piaf, ray charles, muhammad ali, etc.

all famous people, we'll always remember that this persons existed. but are they that great?
i mean, when you know what those people did in their private life, it wasn't great. they were junkies, assholes, etc.

in their "public" life they did great things, but in a way we idealize them, like idols.

they are just humans.

since i'm little i want to be like this persons, i want to shine. when i was 15, our teacher asked us; "what do you want to do in life?"

i answered; "i want to be rich and famous"

that would be my revenge, on everything, on those people who should love me and don't. who said i should never have been born.

... i hope i can make it one day, that's the only thing which help me to get up in the morning

... that an my hatred

Some people seems to be stupid from nature... i don't know if this is possible, but maybe it is genetic?!
how can you forgot for example when you have to hand over your semester work? i mean, you should work 5 months on it, theoretically... or do they just trust to chance? well i can't understand such things...

i worked hard, but i forgot to do few things, it makes me sick.... really i think i'm going mad... maybe i'm mad already.
because i just realized it when it was too late, it isn't some big mistakes, i forgot to center my 3D renderings and to rename some files. i mean it isn't catastrophic... or is it?
i really don't know... maybe i should write a mail to my professor? ;_;

and just because of that so small thing, i'm going mad and there are people who really completely forget when they should hand it over? wtf!?

i should go back to work, but i'm really tired of rename files, to stick, to paint and so one... okay normally i like it but this is all for documentation and that's boring...
i've got an idea for a painting, i already named it; "and that's how god created the earth"
._.;

that was it for today…

		I will marry aoi.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in nagaoka in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 1 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a black alfa romeo.
		I will spend my days as a screen deisgner, and live happily ever after.

I made it for some friends.